My Journey

I was so healthy, so young and so happy at age 55. I did not expect a call from the hospital informing me I had breast cancer. I didn't want to deal with this. It seems that God had finally found a way to sit me still long enough to figure out my life. I would learn why this disease entered my life at this time. I would learn to love myself. I would learn to give up things that took me off my journey in life and notice the gifts God gave me to keep me on my true journey. I learned to be grateful everyday of my life. I learned to change the things I hated waking up to and making my dreams happen for me. With God's help of course. I managed to bring a puppy in my life that would take me on a journey of its own.

I knew on my journey with breast cancer I would overcome this disease and it would be just another bump in the road. It was my detour as I was on a path I should not be on.

I took breast cancer for what it was.

God was making his statement and it was loud and clear to me. I was given the chance to re-evaluate my life and start living it. I was given the chance to take hold of what I really wanted in this lifetime and make it happen. There is no good time and no good reason to put things off. You are the holder of that key. However it needs to be, you allow your desires to come in to you life.

This is one life, one chance and no one should leave this show with a desire. No one should have to utter the words “I wish I did” – “I wish I could”.

I had made myself too busy to listen to what God was telling me for years. I was not able to give it all up to God. I felt I needed to control my life to make things happen myself. How foolish was I? Did I really think I could accomplish anything in life without God's help?

My Book - Single with Breast Cancer

I feel it is so important to jot down your feelings and experiences as you are going through a special journey in life. If I had not done a journal for myself, I would have had nothing to fall back on. I would not have remembered the days as I truly experienced them.

As time passed, I would find myself in a down space every once in a while. I needed something to lift my spirits and remind me of the gratitude I should feel. At these times, I would pull out the words I had written to myself while going through my breast cancer episode. Many times I sat crying. I had forgotten how lucky I was. I had forgotten how I connected to God. I wanted to get re-connected to that space. Through my journal I was able to. There is something about going back to a time that has humbled you.
To get back the gift of life that we often forget we have.

It is a true gift of and to yourself.

I had decided to write a journal as I went through my Breast Cancer experience. I thought this would be a gift of heart for a family member or friend that would need comfort through not only a cancer crisis but any crisis in life. As I started to write my journal I realized what was happening. This disease had been allowed to enter my life for a purpose. I noticed the change in me emotionally and how I was beginning to view the world around me.

As the days passed I could see God was bringing things into my life and that God does speak to us. It's not in a language we have been accustomed to but rather through nature and life experiences. I started to understand that, if allowed, life gives you what you need at that specific time. To gain the knowledge, strength and love for you to continue on as you are or, in most cases such as mine, to get off the path you are on. To take that turn on the journey of life that you would not normally take. Only then will you find your true essence, only then will you find your dream.

I have found through my Breast Cancer experience that sometimes it takes a trauma with this impact to bring us around to listen to LIFE, to listen to GOD.

I needed to change my journal into that book that would share my experience. I have hope that others will get a better understanding of the journey in life we are experiencing and how to notice those "small things" that life brings us that would be LIFE CHANGING.

My thought is ------ if I can touch one person with my words and they can experience a crisis in life and turn it around to be the beginning of the life they have always wanted...I will have completed my intention for this book.

Single with Breast Cancer